i'm weird, yes i know.

hello, i'm back. after abandoned this blog for such a long time, again.  
have no idea what to write, as i usually like to keep my opinions in the bottom of my mind. sorry, but it doesn't mean that i'm selfish and don't like to share things with others.


sometimes (oh no, i think most of the time) people just couldn't accept your thinking, and perhaps we just want to act according to public preference, not to go far away from the stupid yet boring social norms. so people won't think that u are weird. 


"just be yourself" always Sound easy, really. you won't get the chance to do somethings and voice your own  thought as what ourselves want/like, seriously. you got to twist/edit a bit before u actually show up any comments, in order to please people (and to cheat them too, since they only love to listen "sweet lies"). 

hmm, we can ignore those people definitely; but to be pathetically speaking, we always surrounded by those people expecting our actions and words to go accordingly with their ways, following their rules. everything seems like already Fixed, where u cannot make any changes.


if i "just be myself", do whatever i want, people will just say i'm irresponsible, not taking care of other people feelings.... hey! but first, do u care about my condition? No. i just want to confess myself honestly to people, but they said i hurt them; okay, then i just become my typical poker face (remain silent does not mean i'm stop fighting for my pride, i just don't want and not interesting to argue with these narrow-minded people) so sadly, "just be yourself" is just a Dream to me after all, which cannot be realize in the reality.


enjoy life. yea, sounds fun and great; but someone just need to be Strong and Tough enough to face unpredictable and uncountable challenges first, non-stop struggling and protecting yourself, not to be defeated easily. the most important is, be Thick Face!