I don't know what have i done wrong, not even my mother and my brother....
"Dad, can you just kindly tell us, what have we done to you, until you always just simply get mad on us?"
Just wanna tell you, we are your family members, not your 發洩工具. We just cant and maybe will never understand why you just can change your mood so easily and we need to suffer it from you.... Is it your friends are so important to you than us do? Don't you even know that family members are the most reliavable persons in your life? Why you just always cant communicate well with us? We are readily to interact with you anytime if you can ever give out some smile on your face.... Do you know that sometimes we are scare of looking straight into your eyes? Still remember that last time when you are scolding me, you looks like a monster! I cannot forget about that day in my life, even mother also scare of you daddy.... We see no warmess from you, just felt fear and hatred on you.
Do you still remember last time you even ask this kind of stupid question, "怎樣才會快樂啊?" Actually this is your problem that you cannot really let go your pride and always like pretend that all the people around MUST respect on you. Is it the RESPECT really means too much for you? You just cannot make yourself live happily because you are not satisfied with your life now! We all know that, in your narrow-minded thinking, you just cannot let go of this kind of feeling: You think that you already work for a long time and now is the time for you to retired and rest, but you still need to FEED us all! To you, this is unfair right? You think that your 3rd brother now retired and living in the so called LUXURY way of life and you just want it so badly but you cant do it now! So after all, you keep on blame it on three of us... You think your children are useless, cant work somemore still need you to pay money for us.... Is it that so? But to tell you the truth, your eldest daughter is only 20 years old! How can you just force someone at this age level to work and feed you without any qualification on academy and working experience? Do you know that nowadays the certificate is really means so important when you apply for jobs opportunity? But you just keep blame on me and brother because we still need you to pay for our fees! Okay, I know it is quite expensive, but we will try our best to achieve our success and we will thank you on the days later. However, now you are like not so willing to pay these money and this make us feel even more pressure to study when compare to last time at school. This is because in our mind we will keep remind ourselves that we are USING your money (sounds more like BORROWING money from you) and we cannot lose... If not, we will be punished. Sometimes, I ever wonder, is it now the time for me to show my responsility as a eldest child to bear all the burdens for the family? If it do correct, then maybe I will just give up all my study and work to support this family. So, if this will make you HAPPY with it, dad, I will stop my degree course now for sure.
伴君如伴虎, 這句話一點也沒錯. All of the family members are scare of you now but we cannot voice out our fear, so we just keep it until it exploded to become hatred on you. This is not fake, but is true! Do you know that how many times already you have hurted you wife and you son and daughter? maybe you felt regret after this but you never apologize to anyone because you are the HIGHEST KING and we should always show our respectiveness and obedience to you. And after you regret of what you have done on us just now, the only thing you will do to us as AN APOLOGIZE is suddenly give us a lot lot of money!!! You think that who you are now? We are not your employees k... How can you just simply frustrated on us and after that give us this kind of your so called "隬補"? But then we cannot reject it because at the end we still need the money from you, so maybe this is one of the WEAKNESSES that you hold from us. Haiz, what to do.... 只好忍氣吞聲了.
Finally, DAD! we are your lovely family members, please don't ever show your angry monster temper to us again. Please, i begged you ok..... All we want is just a harmony and happiness family. We always hope that we might somedays can get rid of your "Domestic Violence". If you think that rich equals to happiness, then you are TOTALLY WRONG already!!! We want a family without stress and open-minded and can always make jokes around to make each other happy and laugh. So please can you open a bit of space on your "traditional-minded" of narrow thinking to accept all the modern things around you? If you just can ease out all this stress on you, you might as well enjoy and understand how to become a happy person in your life then. We are willing to guide you dad.... We sincerely waiting for your "CHANGE".
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